Bali is such an interesting dichotomy of tradition and superstition and spirituality. 

I freakin’ love it. 

Even the smell…it’s like a warm embrace from the wind saying, I got you. 

Incense everywhere inviting me to feel safe if I want to.

But that damn anxiety seems to want to hang onto for dear life today. 

I am now invited to go into my session with the Balinese Shaman. Ayu takes me up the stairs that are uneven, some short steps and some so long I have to stretch my legs....

Anxiety

Once again . It’s like an unintended guest that demands attention over and over. 

I think anxiety is a bitch. 

I’d like for her to go away and never come back. 

She comes at random times. Like in the San Francisco airport or during a massage of all places. 

Like what the hay? 

She has robbed me of so many precious moments I my life. 

I wonder what she is actually trying to do. Like what does she really want? Perhaps I could ask her and maybe her elephant weigh...

I took my wedding ring off after 35 years  on December 21, 2024….

I felt so much clarity when I took it off. 

I was hiking through paradise rim, when I clearly heard my inner voice say that I was done. 

I was done with the pain of the past. 

Looking at that ring brought up so much pain when I made the decision to get married.

Four months pregnant at 18, scared, ashamed, and left with few options. 

I took the “right” option. 

And I do not regret it- not for a minute.

But there is still s...

“Write it for you.”

This is what I keep hearing for the last few weeks. 

I have felt inspired to write for over two months, even pulled an oracle card encouraging me to pour my words out on paper- but I have seen myself get distracted by everything and anything else.

Maybe it is because I don’t know how to write it for myself. 

I’ve never done it. 

Even now, I will most likely post this to my blog to help me preserve this experience for me in all its sacred juiciness- the up’s the down’s- t...